dear jealousy;
get the fuck out of my life. frankly there's no room here for you and i prefer to not feel
like this ever. you are trying to ruin everything and i don't appreciate it.
sincerely, Justin.
yesterday was one of the best days i've had. I picked her up at 11, and didn't
say goodbye til 8. it's insane how even that much time with her feels short.
I honestly held her hand the entire time, save for a few shifting requirements but
she always held her hand out waiting for me to come back. I honestly feel like
this might work out, which scares me. I'm not one for relationships, and i really
don't want to be in one, but it's pointless to fight it. It was that sappy love at first sight
like from a shitty movie, but i'm not 100% sure of her feelings. How can i be?
i'm not a mind reader. She always catches me looking at her, and a few times she looked
back. Every time our eyes met, i lost control just a little bit more. the way she looks at me
is the only thing keeping me going. Like i've told her, i know she'd never date me, she'll
never be with me. This will blow up long before we get there, because i'm impatient and
not very good at waiting, but honestly, everything feels so perfect and just makes so much sense
when i'm with her. But sadly, just because i've found the one does NOT mean she has.
Even if she jokes about us being soulmates, it's not funny to me, i honestly believe it.
We'll just keep pressing forward, fingers crossed, hell...hope for the best. I've got nothing but
time to wait. Hopefully she sees the way i feel...
to be completely honest, i just can't lose her. friend or otherwise. we were friends first anyway.
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