Friday, July 27, 2012

there's a reason we have second thoughts

so. a lot has happened since i last talked to myself.

the mitsubishi has caught on fire. it's sitting at the mobil waiting to be fixed. two weeks without a car. killing me.

the lexus is still broken as all hell, but i have been saving up in an effort to bring it back on the road. i actually miss that toilet.

i have been putting over time into the nissan. got almost all of the body work done. just down to some final sanding and priming. i almost can't even contain myself.

i've been slipping more and more away from the happy, no fucks given attitude i usually have to some sort of soft mushy emotional person. i think the reason is i've hit a stalemate in my life. i'm getting older and still acting like a teenager. I want so desperately to grow up, find love and be an adult.

speaking of love. i found it, she hasn't. i wonder when she's going to find someone else? or decide this sin't working for her anymore? i feel like it'll be soon. who the hell knows.

i just know, the minute she's gone is the same minute i stop breathing.

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